Well it's that time of year again....

Finals time :D yay.....wait..no. It's been more than a year since I've last taken a final at the great U of I (apparently the internet was created here, neat huh?) and I should be so thankful that I've been given another chance here but all of my body wants to complain. Why am I so sinful? why am I so selfish? This past weekend was lock-in and it was suuuuuuppperrr blessing and it's not because I prayed really hard or anything (well I did) but  it was because God showed me so much grace that night. P. Jong said there's two kinds of "why me"s. There's the "why me?" in a selfish context, "why me?" why am I in this situation? why do I have to suffer? However, the other "why me?" is a little different. It's "why me?" Why does God look down on me with grace? Why does God show me nothing but love when I fail him time and time again? Why me? Why am I forgiven for all my transgressions when I've done nothing? It's true we've done nothing to receive God's grace BUT it's not because of what we've done, it's because of what God has done, WHO God is! God is great, God is forgiving, God is merciful. So, I am thankful even during finals because of what God has done. His grace is new every morning despite the fact that I fail and fail and will continue to fail. Thank you Lord, thank you for what You've done and what You continue to do for this sinner. Thank you...